Alice, hard heart, soft tears: canine loves

Won't you never ever understand?
Won't you never, ever become me? 
Why don't you become me? 

And especially: why don't you become that.

And so many times I wanted to be digno, and so many times I tried and tried but no... the grace eluded me.

Like a pet that doesn't know why it's punished I walk year after year, decade after decade, and still being myself demanding and false: I never knew well the difference between right and wrong, my intentions always have been corrupt, deceitful, turbid, I'm not honest, I never was.


Won't I never ever understand?
Won't I never, ever become you?
Why I don't become you?