I Never Came

"...Hello my sweet friend, you are hearing my voice through this... digital recording, which I made ad hoc, and I know, yes I know


I well know that you know that I was deep in debt and had lost my wife and one of my daughters and... 

and we have been out of touch for some time, because... I lost my mind... I...





... no, no, it's just my fault, please excuse me... excuse me
excuse me please, I miss you so much... is just that... I




I see you in dreams
and when the daylight comes you're not there anymore

and sometimes we prefer the silence... but this silence in which I am submersed it's so...

I feel so dead in this blue sky where the sun never shines













this recording is to let you know:

I returned to the present day after killing my father, 65 years in the past, long long before I was engendered







I returned, but I never came.





















I am here, and now, in this same room with you, I know it, but I don't see it, an don't see you


and when the daylight comes you're not there anymore, and this clearness it's so confusing, and the vigil gets melted with the remembrances of a past that could have been but wasn't.




I'm here? (I know I am, haha! Of course I am) But I can't see anything, because I'm actually nowhere...


I'm... lost.

















I am lost."